Why am I not happy? Why am I constantly angry at everything around me? Why can’t I stop? So many questions linger on my mind preventing me from getting any sleep. I’m so tired of everything around me and I wish I could go far away and live some place where no one knows me. But would that make me happy? I don’t even know. What would make me happy actually? I have not a single clue.

Every job I’ve had I have hated including my current. We had a Christmas party recently and I couldn’t help, but notice everyone enjoying themselves and living. It made me mad because I can’t have that happiness. I’m always walking around with a chip on my shoulder it seems.

Constantly broke, I no longer look forward to paydays due to bills. I try to keep my head up, I really do, but life just makes it harder for me.