So, a couple of weeks ago I had decided I would start going back to the gym after an almost year-long hiatus. The reason why I stopped going in the first place was simply because of the stress from work in combination with a long battle with depression. I was exhausted and sluggish. When I knew I couldn’t muster the energy to continue my weight loss plan, I started eating way more and that made me even more depressed.
At the start of this year, I had planned to make this my year and decided to become best version of myself.
However, no matter how many times I had told myself this line I still felt very anxious about going back and thus I had kept putting off my first visit. I often thought about the number of people that were there and how overwhelming this setting was. I was up at night worrying about what could go wrong.
This is not the first time I had felt this way and it certainly will not be the last. Whenever an event is planned out for me, my mind goes into overdrive focusing more on the negatives than positives. It doesn’t matter what it is whether it’s a job interview or an invite from a friend, I constantly stress out. That event is all I will think of until that day comes and once it hits… I realize that maybe there was nothing I should have been worried about.
The gym was fine and everyone in it was fine, but I just can’t seem to help myself. That’s how it is everywhere I go. I get so wrapped up in my head so often that I forget to slow down and take a breather.
And that’s what I like to remind everyone today: slow day and take a moment of silence to think and relax. Anxiety shouldn’t define us and keep us in a mental prison. We can all move past that.